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2 years to the day September 8, 2011

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My how time flies! Exactly 2 years ago was my last post. So much has changed and yet so much remains the same.

It’s time to do some clean up!

 

Fearless by Max Lucado September 8, 2009

Posted by Theresa Madden in Bible, Book Review, Faith, Feelings, God.
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Living fearless. What an idea, one not really thought of on a daily basis. The more we practice living fearless the easier it becomes. Finding the many faces and facets of fear and finding the way to overcome them. To replace them with truth. Finding the way to live fearless in the verses found in God’s Word.

‘Fearless’ by Max Lucado is a book that addresses many types of fear. I love the titles of the chapters, it seems that the titles really bring into focus the message of the chapter itself. The key words in the title open the door to better understand and relate the fear that we feel to something tangible.

Each chapter is laced with scripture to counteract the fears talked about. Also he has stories that so many of us can relate too. Watch for the jokes too! Who would have thought that you could joke in a book about fear? Actually the book isn’t about fear, it is about overcoming fear. We are given the tools to fight and win the battle.

The discussion guide in the back that may be used in small group settings or for individual study. Each lesson has three parts: Examining Fear, Exposing Fear, Battling Fear. It asks some really good questions, helps us to pinpoint the fear and gives scripture to battle the fear.

I really like this book and highly recommend it. Who of us hasn’t struggled with fear at some point? This is an easy read and one to keep in the library.

Guest post on sovereignty August 5, 2009

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There’s an excellent post on the sovereignty of God here.

Heaven and Earth May 29, 2009

Posted by Theresa Madden in Bible, Faith, God, Music, Testimony.
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I changed my theme again and I was thinking that I liked it okay. The next day I actually looked at it and realized – the header goes perfectly with the scripture I keep in my sidebar.

Whom have I in heaven but You? And earth has nothing I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Ps. 73:25-26 NIV

So now I really like it, and it brings to mind the song ‘Glory in the Highest’ by Chris Tomlin.  And here it is with words and pictures. Beautiful!

 

The Road Where Steven Died May 23, 2009

Posted by Theresa Madden in Bible, Counseling, Family, Feelings, Grief, Thoughts.
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I grew up going up and down Highway 38 to the coast. So many times I’ve traveled that road, and it has always been Highway 38.

Today I realized it is not Highway 38 anymore.

Today was the first day I have traveled that road in over 2 years. I haven’t been on it since before my son Steven was in his accident. I did not go and see where it happened. I did not want to. I didn’t want to memorialize where he lost his life, to see the awful sight. I wanted to remember him in my heart.

Today on the spur of the moment we went to the coast. A few miles outside of town it dawned on me that we were on ‘the road where Steven died’. Then the turmoil in my heart and mind began. Did I want to know where, did I not want to know where?

Did I search all the way to the coast the areas where I thought it could have been from the remembered description? Yes. And on the way back did I search again? Yes. All the while not sure if I really wanted to know or not.

When Steven died my daughter in law Shyla and I requested that no flowers be put there. No markers. I feel it is so morbid. Why do that when all it brings is more grief. Then going back again and again to relive it. No thank you.

Today is a day of so many mixed emotions. Do I bust out crying or hold it in. If you know me, you know I am a master at holding it in. For over 30 years I thought that I couldn’t cry…once is enough and the mourning is over. Thankfully I did go to counseling about 6 months after Steven died and learn that is not the case. It is okay and good. I do feel a little off now, I think that is why. It’s a weird almost sick feeling, and yes I’m going to cry. Again, mourning my children; Steven and Karen who he has now joined in heaven with Jesus. I cannot say that they were taken before their time, or taken too early.  I cannot say no parent should lose a child. I cannot say no one should lose a spouse. I cannot say my children should not lose a brother. I cannot say my grandchildren should not have lost their father. Who am I to say that? Only the Lord knows if it is 1 day, 1 year or 29 years.  Psalm 139.15 All the days ordained for me  were written in your book before one of them came to be. HE knows every moment, every breath we will take. HE knows the lives we will touch, in our living and in our dying. And in that, I will trust the LORD.

The road…one of these days perhaps I’ll ask one of the people who knows where it happened and have them show me. There are only 3 in my family that know. I’m not sure yet. I’m almost afraid to know. Afraid that will become a focus when I drive down the road and I don’t want it to be. I didn’t go see the pickup either for the same reason. Why have that in my head to replay the picture.   From the descriptions at the time I already have a picture, but not so graphic and one that will fade more as time goes on.

Highway 38 is now ‘the road where Steven died’.

Regret or Repentance May 21, 2009

Posted by Theresa Madden in Bible, Faith, God, Thoughts.
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It took a couple of days, okay 4 to get this post up I referred to here. We had a good message in April and I am going to shamelessly use some of the bullet points from that teaching.

  • God will allow us to temporarily suffer and struggle, because of our own choices. But, when He does, it is to lead us to true repentance.

When I am in the midst of suffering and I ask God for help. “Lord please help me, get me out of this.” Why am I asking?

Is it because I’m desperate? I’m regretting the choices that led me to where I am now? When the Lord helps me and it seems all is well, will I turn and do the same thing again?

or

Is it because I am truly repentant? Am I going to make different choices, better choices? Am I going to change?

  • Repentance = a changed life / behavior
  • Regret = no change in my life / behavior … it is still all about ‘what’s in it for me?’

I’ve heard it before but for some reason it really struck a chord. If I’m truly living for Christ I must not take ownership of my life, I must let God have control.
Luke 9:23 Then he said to them all: “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. 24 For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. 25 What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self? NIV

  • We are to live by and for the promises of Christ, not by the pretense of our own power.

The Holy Spirit lives in me, I have Christ, I have all I need in Him. When I am regretful I am living in the pretense of my own power. And pretense it is! When I am repentant, then the promises of Christ and His power rules my life. I will live to please Him.

I don’t want to regret – I want to repent. I want to truly live! And for me that means Christ. How about you?


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