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A Poignant Reminder May 31, 2008

Posted by Theresa Madden in Faith, Family, God, Grief, Love, Prayer, Testimony.
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It is time to pull out the poem that was given to me when my daughter Karen died unexpectedly at 1 1/2 years of age in 1977. I myself had just turned 18. I don’t read it often but remember many of the lines. They have been a huge comfort. Although I was not walking with the Lord, I did know Christ. He held me together even though I did not know it, even though I did not grieve as I should have.

When my son Steven died in a car accident last August at 29 years of age I couldn’t read this. I kept it in my heart for Karen. I have been walking with the Lord for many years now. About 10 years ago I fully gave my children Steven, Katie, and Amanda over to the Lord. The kids were 19, 9, 8 respectively. I realized I could not always keep them safe, nor make decisions for them. We are told not to worry in the bible, but to pray. So pray I did, surrendering them completely to the Lord’s will for each of their lives. I could only teach them, and show them the Lord, most especially through my walk with Him. And love them, no matter what, love. And the love I pour out to them is so worth it, so worth the cost. Unconditionally.

This poem is by Edgar Guest.

“I’ll lend you for a little while

A child of mine,” He said.

“For you to love the while he lives

And mourn when he is dead.

It may be six or seven years, or

Twenty two or three,

But will you ’til I call him back,

Take care of him for Me?

He’ll bring his charms to gladden you,

And should his days be brief,

You’ll have his lovely memories

As solace for your grief.

I cannot promise he will stay,

Since all from earth return,

But there are lessons taught down there

I want this child to learn.

I’ve looked this wide world over

In my search for teachers true,

And from the throngs that crowd life’s lane,

I have selected you.

Now will you give all your love,

Nor think the labor vain,

Nor hate Me when I come to call

To take him back again?”

I fancy that I heard them say,

“Dear Lord, Thy will be done.

For all the joy this child shall bring,

The risk of grief we’ll run;

We’ll shelter him with tenderness,

We’ll love him while we may,

And for the happiness we’ve known

Forever grateful stay.

But should the angels call for him,

Much sooner then we’ve planned,

We’ll brave the bitter grief that comes

And try to understand.”

My prayer is that as we read these words we are comforted, we understand these children are loaned to us for a time. They are not ours, they are really our Fathers. We care for them, love them, treasure them and give them to the One who loves them the most. For His glory alone. Unconditionally.


What does Quiet Time mean? May 30, 2008

Posted by Theresa Madden in Bible, Devotions/Quiet Time, Faith, Feelings, God, Journal, Love, Prayer, Thoughts.
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This whole thought process started here with Cathi and Tawny so I’ll wait while you catch up.



Back yet? Okay.

Quiet time for someone like me (rules, rules, rules – even implied rules) starts with having to have the house quiet, that includes people, electronic media, you get it – quiet. Time – mere moments do not count, it has to be at least a 1/2 hour or I’ve shorted God. So from the get-go, I’m distracted. For me – Devotions is much better. I am devoting myself to God.

Therein lies my quandry, yes I am devoting myself to God for that period of time. Isn’t He though devoting Himself to me also? I know that my Lord is always devoted to me, ALWAYS. But still, the purpose (for me) is two way communication…I want to hear from God as well as talk with Him.

Devotions – from the Greek word “sebasma” means, object of worship.

We were talking about communicating…communicate comes from the Greek word “sugkoinoneo” (pronounced= soong-koy-no-neh-o) meaning to share in company with, i.e. co-participate in:-communicate (have fellowship) with, be partaker of.

I don’t know about you, but l love the definition of communicate. I don’t think we could coin sugkoinoneo as “the” new word for quiet time or devotions.

What do you think? What word comes to mind when you think of your time spent with the Lord?

Where is that coming from? May 28, 2008

Posted by Theresa Madden in Family, Fits & Giggles, Friends, Random, Thoughts.
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Let me set the stage for you:

It has been raining cats and dogs here today so when I got home I turned the heat on just to take the edge off.  It only took a few minutes and I decided that was enough, turned it off.

Ok, stage has been set.

Where is that cold air coming from? Oh my gosh – my nose is cold… it is an ARTIC BLAST I tell you!

So, I go to check the furnace because I thought I had turned the heat off. Well, yes, I did, twice. You know what that means don’t you? I wasn’t paying attention the second time to know that I had done it already, and just pushed that old switch right on over to air conditioning. Geez!!

What is the last brainless thing you did?

Searches? May 28, 2008

Posted by Theresa Madden in Fits & Giggles, Random.
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doing quiet time
devotions for jail ministry
his life for mine how could it ever be
results of saving time in your devotions

Doesn’t “doing” quiet time sound like something you don’t want to do?

I AM lesson 5 May 27, 2008

Posted by Theresa Madden in Bible, Faith, Feelings, God, I AM...so you don't have to be, Love, Prayer, Testimony, Thoughts.
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1. Have you ever found yourself ‘in faith’ yet bewildered or demoralized?

Yes. In my experience, I have felt bewildered or demoralized in one area only to find that it was really only where my bewilderment was being manifested. I am close to those people, and have more interaction with them so it just came out there. Giving completely over to God and whatever He chooses, to be completely open and vulnerable exposed the truth.

2. Do you consider yourself content? Would you describe it as Decidedly Content or Dreamily Content?
Can it be both? It started out as Decidedly Content, but the longer it lasts the more it turns into Dreamily Content. Trusting that no matter how long it takes, or even if it doesn’t happen – I’m okay with it. Because I am in His will and that is good enough. He is enough.

3. If you are not content, are there circumstances that keep you from this feeling?
I am content, also I have to be careful to not let circumstances lure me into discontent – it can so easily happen.

4. Have you ever found yourself in a place where you looked back on a period of your Christian walk and believed a great opportunity passed you by?
I must catch myself here because when I think great opportunity I think “great” in the big sense, our human sense anyway. I can think of a few in my humanness – if I would have sung that song better then I would be doing “this”.
But really – the great opportunity, to speak the truth to someone who has not heard it. To share in love, with the Spirit leading – that is the missed great opportunity. And yes, I have missed it.

5. Do you ever believe your faith was stronger in an earlier time in your Christianity and find yourself floundering now?
No. I believe I am growing stronger every day.

6. Can you recognize that this season may be one of great preparation instead of a period of “I Was”?
Yes. That is taking the focus off of me and turning it to Christ. This longing I have, maybe it is just a bit misguided and He is leading me slowly to what He wants. The longing gradually changing…fading to a longing but a longing for “what” I do not know. It is there nonetheless and I so want to do, long to do big things for Him. Whatever, whenever, however He chooses. Nothing is impossible! All things are possible, through Christ.

NMFAPIMWLC-week-2-done May 26, 2008

Posted by Theresa Madden in Family, Feelings, Friends, Love, Ministry, NMFAPIMWLC, Testimony.
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Another week done!

I was successful in adding another minute to my stepper. And also much better at the chair swivels – post it notes work wonders (and getting over myself that someone may walk by my office and see me). It has made a difference.

I have lost a couple of pounds, actually I am now wearing pants I couldn’t even think about wearing 2 weeks ago. Feeling better!!

In case you missed it we have a Facebook group now, details can be found here. Here are the links to everyone I know about that has jumped in. Anyone else want to?